I recently attended the #TalkSeries hosted by Alex & Ani with Image Magazine and Hunter Communications with Caroline Casey as MC, Sinéad Burke and Louise McSharry as speakers.The theme of this talk was inspiring positive energy.
What was to be a talk on positive energy and inspiration became so much more as the girls all told their stories and give their thoughts on various topics all revolving around the theme of positivity. One thing that really struck a chord with me was how they all bared all when talking about vunerability and how it’s so important in relation to how we see ourselves.
I think of myself as quite a positive and confident person but I haven’t always been and I take things really personally when I shouldn’t. Recently I had my world come swallow me up in terms of my confidence, quite literally as I’ve been experiencing episodes of vertigo. This is not something I had experienced before and really hit me like a ton of bricks, for those who don’t know vertigo is a type of dizziness that is experienced as a whirling or spinning movement that comes in varying degrees. Thankfully mine is not as severe as others I know where the ground literally comes up and grabs them. For me this also comes with anxiety as it makes me unsure of everything, where I am, who I am with, am I standing or sitting or even lying down. It’s prevented me from doing simple things like going to the shop or for a walk on my own, as I fear although I have not fainted during one of these episodes they are so unpredictable I don’t want to put myself in the situation of waking up to a bunch of strangers or being carted off to hospital.
The talk I attended was my first outing on my own since my diagnosis and while I had a couple of episodes, mainly on the bus home it made me realise that it doesn’t take over my life or stop me doing the things I love. I’ve been worrying so much about having vertigo I’m pretty sure I’ve been inducing episodes through worry and over-thinking.
Getting used to it has been key for me, knowing what can trigger it, what side it is on, making sure I eat regularly, really simple things but they really make a difference. A lot of people have commented on how positive I am about it all and for the record I am working on it, it doesn’t come naturally, it just doesn’t make sense to me to let it take over especially when I could have this for life.
Anyway I just wanted to share this with you and hope that maybe someone out there is struggling with their own difficulties and feels less alone.